May Your Kingdom Come

      “May Your kingdom come; may Your will be done”

                My Will is love for I am love

Lately I have been trying to learn more about God’s will. I came to understand and accept that no matter how great and wonderful my deeds were, they didn’t matter at all if they didn’t follow His will. After some time studying and praying over this subject, I started embracing the fact that God’s will was truly the best place for me and that I wanted to live there no matter what it took. On the days that followed, on several occasions, I found myself renouncing what I was discerning to be my own will, openly saying to God, “I want Your will and nothing else. Help me to know it and follow it, for without your grace I will never be able to do it.”

During this same time I had also been continually praying for a specific intention that had been in my heart for many years. In my mind, I had all the right reasons to be granted this petition. However, as the time passed and no answer was received, I started believing that it was the Lord’s will for this situation to remain as it was and that my attitude towards it should be one of acceptance of His will. I started living day after day under this belief and began noticing in myself a spiritual decline, a weakening in my prayer life and in my overall faith life. To my surprise I found myself one day in absolute hopelessness and even despair. What had happened to me? Wasn’t I surrendering to God’s will? Wasn’t this what He expected from me?

God does not waste anything when it comes to leading us into His will. It was through a series of unrelated events, such as regularly attending a church group, watching a movie with my family, visiting a sick friend, reading a book, and listening to a podcast, that the siren of God’s voice started sounding louder and louder as I strove to be in prayer and search of God’s presence. His answer came clearly: My will is love; My kingdom is filled with love, patience, kindness, humility, forgiveness and especially freedom and wholeness. My will is not for you to conform to situations of resentment, captivity, sickness, etc. My will is for you to bring My kingdom, My love,  to this situation so those chains are broken, not by your power but by My Holy Spirit.

 “Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of hosts.” Zechariah 4:6

Haven’t I done that during all these years Lord? Haven’t I prayed fervently for Your kingdom to come to this situation?  

His answer resonated plainly and unquestionably within me: Where is your love for that person? Have you truly loved?  I am love and My only way of passing through you is when you love, when you truly love with My love. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

I had to confess what He already knew: my petitions were accompanied by entitlement,  judgment, pride, sense of superiority, conditioned love, impatience and even resentment towards God for not answering after such a long time. Where are you? I asked on many occasions. 

After this revelation my entire view of the situation changed. I even felt Him asking me: Where did you get the idea that My will is for you to surrender to a life of oppression and pain? Am I not a good father who delights in loving his children and giving them good things?” (See Mathew 7:11, James 1:17) 

My child, My will for you is to love and to let My kingdom come through the love that is passed from one to another,  especially those you have been praying for. Accept my timing, surrender to My will on how or when I will deal with that heart, but remain in Me and love as I command you to; then, and only then, you will see My glory. 

By Karla Cebreros

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